So today I spanked my three year old. And not once, but three times. And now I feel like shit. I feel like I'm one of those trashy moms that just beat their kids when they don't want to deal with them correctly. I didn't know what else to do. I know it sounds lame but I really didn't. When it was time for bed tonight he just went nuts. Screaming, crying, kicking, hitting. Thrashing even. When I tried to change his diaper he kicked me and twisted and screamed louder than I thought possible. So I spanked him to get his attention after giving him, like, 10 warnings. But still, I feel like a horrible mom. I just want to go in there and cuddle him and tell him what a great little boy he is and how much I love him. I just want to be the good guy. The one he always wants to cuddle and give kisses.
After all the drama ended you know what he said? "Daddy is a good daddy huh?". It was so sweet. But I have to tell you, it hurt just a little to not have him add my name to that also.
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