Catching up.

So it's been a while. A long while even. A lot has happened in the last few months. We bought a new house, a house I love. We just moved in a couple weeks ago and I feel like I have lived here forever already. It has everything we had on our wishlist in the area we wanted to live. It's a beautiful little older neighborhood tucked way in the back.

I'm trying to work but not really working. I always hit this point when trying to start my career; I make plans and goals, I get a baby sitter for as often as we can afford, but then I realize it just isn't enough to make it work. I can't be a successful realtor while being a stay at home mom. It always comes back to the kids. I can't show homes with the kids, I can't make phone calls with the kids. I need to review my priorities yet again. I keep getting lost in what I want now and I need to focus on what I want for the future and what I can actually DO now.

So it's back to the place I always end up. I will happily make my plans for the future, I will focus on my kids and be the wife I want to be. The career will come but right now I need to be the mom, the wife. I need to focus on being a woman that I can be proud to be. I want to be content, patient, thoughtful, active. I want to be the mom who plays soccer with her kids, reads them stories, teaches them new things and let's them just be kids.

I'm working on it.